a toast to life with You

My bones are a little less chilli now. the shock or whatever it was, is slowly fading. Strange how deep such a thing can go. on the other hand it's not so strange. cuz think about it. when love can go so deep - of course the fear goes just as deep. but while shock is easing off slowly, the Fear stays with Love. maybe they belong together. Maybe they can't exist without each other. made for each other. and if you take Fear away - Love dies? I don't want that to happen. ever. Love is way too beautiful, way to precious to let it die so carelessly.
But since I know now what I didn't know then Fear is bearable and not killing me every second of the day.
I raise my glass, make a toast, a toast in Your honor...