balance

while I'm at work (according to an absence of clients totally unecessarily)there is danes fighting with arabs about freedom of speech and religious fundamental-ideolism. then there are other arabs fighting with other europeans about other ideals and weaponry. makes me feel very secure in this world. but even if there is this huge imbalance in the world there's an even bigger inbalance in me.
and I really don't know how to get a hold of it. the problem with it is, that it's not only affecting me by pissing myself off but I also make life harder for others. and this is the last time but I have to say it once more. I am truly sorry.
let's hope that a wednesday of going back to my past and 10 days out of country will help. and then a little sport?