weather forecast: november depressions ahead

I'm having a low day today. not that this is any news, but I can't bring myself to finish all the essays that are still waiting to be, well, finished.

gf is trying her best to make me smile. i expect it's a very unrewarding task, I just don't feel like smiling. but I'm doing better. especially after I was given all these acrylic colors. all i would need to start painting would be canvas...gotta get myself some next week and possibly maybe I will have a low day then and not doing anything for university will probably put me into a creative mood and paint that long promised picture for my parents' bedroom.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not an artist, I'm bad at drawing anything, but I promised to try and I figured this upcoming November depression might be the right time...

so gf's in the kitchen baking some of her delicious goodies, or something. and I'm couch surfing in self-pity watching "bunny TV" listening to rachel maddow and old l-word podcasts...
she just brought me some raw dough and told me to taste but not to eat, but then the dough was delicious and how can I not keep tasting againa and again...?