gf went to Hungary until Monday and has left me and the bunnies home alone with nothing to do but miss her...ok, it's not true that I don't have anything to do but I kinda feel that way.
So I thought I'd call up S, my best friend and it happened that I really reached her (which hardly ever happens) and we talked all afternoon. she doesn't live in vienna and we send e-mails more or less regularly, we talk occasionally and we haven't seen each other in three (!) years. I love these long talks about all and nothing, where afterwards I don't even know anymore what we talked about, it was just nice hearing her voice and knowing she's ok.
I haven't heard from gf yet (except that she arrived safely) and that worries me a bit, but I decided to believe everything's good.
the amazing thing is that S really is sort of my best friend (the relationship is hard to describe and not easy to understand for anyone who is not her or me, so I'll call it best friends) and gf hasn't even met her yet. we try for a year or so by now, but it hasn't happened yet. S decided that she's gonna come visit as soon as she has the money. She hates Vienna but she will come. and this time I kinda have the feeling that it really will happen.
I'm also a bit afraid of what will happen when gf meets S. Will they claw each others' eyes out, will the room freeze, will everything be nice and smooth? I admit it makes me nervous, because I can't control what will happen. I can't know or influence the outcome of a situation I want to be perfect so bad, it freaks me out...
I guess, I really need to learn how to let go and go with the situation, relax and stop controlling everything/one around me...
2/09/2008
slow motion
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
gf meeting best friends is scary, and I can sypmpathise with the must-control-make-perfect urge! I was lucky in that my bezzer introduced me to this gf, and they're friends in their own right. It was a bit worse with my other 'best' mate, since it's an almost familial relationship with us, but it all went smoothly you'll be pleased to know! Three years later and all is still well!
Lola
I know it's tough, but try not to do what I call pre-freaking: assuming the worst before you have any idea how it's going to go. I have that habit sometimes, and most of the time it all ends up just fine.
I am totally compatible. or... at least I can be nice. really! what are you guys thinking of me? hrmpf.
;)
thanks to everyone for their kind words and examples of everything working out fine. I try not to pre-freak (nice word, LG) and let things happen the way they will...
oh and gf, I know you're really nice and all, but still this whole thing should've happened a long time ago, now expectations are a bit higher than before...at least mine are.
ohmmmmm...I'll meditate my way out of freaking :)
Post a Comment