I had an appointment today

...but I couldn't go because I was sitting/leaning/lying on the couch hugging a hot water bag and popping painkillers....yay.

So instead of getting my hair cut and looking super cool afterwards, I'm in my PJ's and snuggly bathrobe under a blanket haunting the interweb, looking for distraction.

I hate days like that.

in da hood

no I'm not a rapper!

coming late into the office means leaving late.
and leaving home quite hurriedly means wearing whatever clothes I could find.
As a result I'm wearing a hoodie that gf wore yesterday and I just realised how comforting I find it to be able to smell her if I want to. It's so familiar and reassuring. Very nice.

I'll try to get home soon, I guess.

the trees refuse

it's now officially cold.
I'm sitting here in the office with ice cold fingers, and gf knows how cold cold can be. I can hardly type.
I turned on the heating hoping it might help. let's see...

It's fall, now. It's rainy, people wear warmer clothes and look like onions peeling out of their layers of garments as soon as they enter a building.
Everything is as it should be. The only thing that is wrong is nature. Trees are still green and on some bushes there are still fruit or nuts or whatever they have. It's like they were surprised by the cold, which I don't get. Because there already were a couple of colder days in August followed by some warmer ones that weren't quite warm enough anymore. Now it's really cold. but the trees refuse to change their color vehemently.

the window is leaking...again

it started off as summer. normal summer. heat and all.
then came a nice summer rain that turned into hail, which is nothing unusual either.
then the hail came through our window...again.
it's not as bad as last time where we had all our towels soaked in an attempt to keep the water outside. but it's the same fucking thing again. the window frame is leaking. we will have to call the landlord again, they will send over an expert again. the expert will talk to the insurance again. insurance will approve repairing the window again and it will be repaired again...no wait. they only did it cuz they were doing repairworks anyways. so it might take them months to repair our window. we still have patches of fluff under the ex-faulty-window that are gonna be removed next wednesday. I HATE JUNE!!! or our windows, i'm not sure.

lazy days

oh how I love days like these. it's still rainy but i'm done with the crying. It was veiled gracefully by watching a movie. and so it was ok to cry...i guess. serenity btw is a very nice thing to watch on a sunday morning/noon...for breakfast.

AND we finally ordered MASH season 7. after months of abstinence...can't wait to watch. plus I feel a little like hawkeye myself. at least I'm running around with a backache that kills me looking much like a ?.

plus I was not totally lazy today, cuz I did one of my many homeworks for uni. ooh I'm proud of myself :)

rainy days

rainy days always get to me in one way or another. sometimes they're so beautiful I could cry, sometimes there are emotional break downs and I cry. somehow rainy days, although appreciated and liked very much, make me cry somehow. today it's one of those days, when I'm so angry at myself I can't even believe it. and the world keeps tumbling down. I wish there was a cactus to crawl under somewhere...