choices

a panic attack and cuddle offenses later I find myself being co-dependend and needy, yet enjoying lonely time so much.
I'm supposed to hoover, do an 25 page essay and maybe bake some muffings. but in fact I just wanna sit around and listen to tori or amber benson. and be enchanted by their voices and words.
maybe it's hormone levels gone weird, maybe it's normal but it's definitely not good. not for me, neither for her.
but how on earth am I supposed to turn the music off and get a life. my music is like her tv. it's in my air, I breath it in.
so deliberately suffocate or suffocating her by being clingy. great.
I love my options.